lately + gratitude monday

I'll be completely honest with you guys right now, I'm not quite feeling like writing too much. The transition to moving home as been a  bit rough with my competition prep starting back up now that I am home from Europe. The foggy brain from lack of carbs, desire to lay on the couch all day in effort to not expend too much energy, being over emotional, and struggling to get my mind right for the gym are all things that I had to overcome those last few weeks of college when I really started digging to get ready for this show. I fought hard. School kept me busy and friends were so patient with me and supportive of what I was doing. Then, I went away and relaxed a bit for a couple of weeks during my trip, and now it is harder than ever to get myself back on track. 

But I'm fighting. 

I refuse to back down. I'll get back where I was once this first week of heck is over. If any of you are trying to slim down, get going on a new fitness routine, or cut for a show, know that you have a friend in me and that I completely understand the challenges you are facing! Here's how I've been handling things on the diet front lately!


Coffee is a life saver. Yes, sometimes I want to punch the overly joyful Dutch Bros workers when they ask me what I'm doing and where I'm going and how I'm doing, but something about a quad iced black puts the whole world back together.

 An old favorite with a new twist: grilled bell pepper sandwich with 2 egg whites, organic cheddar, shredded turkey, and a dippy egg on top with roasted broccoli on the side. My heart sings for veggies! 

My latest favorite breakfast that I may or may not have made every single morning since returning from Europe! Cantaloupe with stevia-sweetened greek yogurt and nut butter! Summer fruit is HEREEEE!!! And a drizzle of pistachio cream brought from Italy makes it so much sweeter :)

A new life lesson: seafood pasta cannot and should not be made into a diet-friendly version. Failure. 

 Homemade olive oil rosemary bread hot out of the oven to save the day!

 Homemade curry is another beautiful success! Recipe coming soon!

Days out with my brother and WhichWich dates make high carb days even more splendid!

Inspiration keeps me going. Unfollowing every food porn poster as I come across it!! I understand, because I am the ultimate foodie, but prepping with that temptation is torture!

I got a new job. It's about time I start working at my second home. 

I get oddly creative when I am so restricted. This one is a lettuce base, topped with an egg and veggie scramble (egg whites, broccoli, mushrooms, spinach, onion, and bell pepper), topped with a bit of brown rice, and finished with a dippy yolk egg and some franks hot sauce. A pile of JOY!

Finding nuggets of wisdom that my professors gave me before I graduated.

Filling my room with things that remind me of my friends from Loma. Most days I feel pretty lonely without them. I wouldn't mind leaving the beach behind, I just miss my friends. I would have never thought that I could be home and still be so homesick.

At the end of the day, this is it. I want to compete and I want to go to law school. Just like I was determined to go to Point Loma and start a blog, I'm going to do it. Even when it's hard, it is always worth it. 

My gratitude on this beautiful Monday is for the friendships and experiences that I were incredible enough to miss. Having moments to miss is a blessing.

What are you grateful for today?

1 comment:

  1. Girl I totally feel ya on trying to balance the food and the body! I'm sending you happy, energetic thoughts and I know you're gonna kick butt at whatever goal you set! As for that food - it's late, but you got me drooling! I love the bell pepper as bread. Cooking like a ninja!

    Right now, I'm thankful for family. I'm thankful that the US won their World Cup game against Ghana because it gave my family something to celebrate together about. And I'm grateful for the friends I made last year! :)

    Hang in there, girl! I'm only a text message away! :D